Wednesday, January 28, 2009
i miss you so much...
...dad.
i still wake up on days wishing you're still around.
i still remember those days i sent you off to work. i still remember those days you'll randomly call me and ask whether i've had my meal. i still remember those days i fetch u from work and we'll just catch up the whole drive home, dad and son. i still remember those days we'll go out for dinner. i still remember your jokes. i still remember your face. i still remember your smile. i still remember your laughter. i still remember that fearsome face you pull when i did something wrong.
i still remember - i love you, dad. so much that no word can ever describe it.
i never had the chance to tell you how much i love and care for you when you're around. i never had the chance to hang out with you often when you're around. it's unfortunate that i only told you all my feelings when you're on that bed, counting down to your last breath.
i miss those times we'll carry your lazy chair into my room, and we'll both talk till we both fall asleep. i miss those nagging you gave me. i miss having our daily breakfast together. i miss you so much, dad.
why did you have to go? i still need you around...especially at times when i have too much to shoulder. and especially when i'm lonely.
i'll still deliberately drive down Yio Chu Kang Road, and remember those days i'll send and fetch you from work, wash the car and hang out with your colleagues - at your office. the office that's your second home.
it's just weird now, when people refer to me as "late Hashim's son" or "Mr. Hashim's estate".
five months already since you left me, dad. i miss you, and i love you - that's the one thing i cannot replace.
thank you for everything, dad. for giving me life, for all the struggles to bring me up and for successfully making me what i am now.
...dad.
i still wake up on days wishing you're still around.
i still remember those days i sent you off to work. i still remember those days you'll randomly call me and ask whether i've had my meal. i still remember those days i fetch u from work and we'll just catch up the whole drive home, dad and son. i still remember those days we'll go out for dinner. i still remember your jokes. i still remember your face. i still remember your smile. i still remember your laughter. i still remember that fearsome face you pull when i did something wrong.
i still remember - i love you, dad. so much that no word can ever describe it.
i never had the chance to tell you how much i love and care for you when you're around. i never had the chance to hang out with you often when you're around. it's unfortunate that i only told you all my feelings when you're on that bed, counting down to your last breath.
i miss those times we'll carry your lazy chair into my room, and we'll both talk till we both fall asleep. i miss those nagging you gave me. i miss having our daily breakfast together. i miss you so much, dad.
why did you have to go? i still need you around...especially at times when i have too much to shoulder. and especially when i'm lonely.
i'll still deliberately drive down Yio Chu Kang Road, and remember those days i'll send and fetch you from work, wash the car and hang out with your colleagues - at your office. the office that's your second home.
it's just weird now, when people refer to me as "late Hashim's son" or "Mr. Hashim's estate".
five months already since you left me, dad. i miss you, and i love you - that's the one thing i cannot replace.
thank you for everything, dad. for giving me life, for all the struggles to bring me up and for successfully making me what i am now.
